Heartache.

Today was Cade's first day of preschool and in the days leading up to this my heart would ache every once and a while. Where has the past 4 1/2 years gone? I still can't wrap my brain around the fact that my first baby will go to kindergarten next year. To some of you this sounds silly, others of you understand but, none the less my heart hurts. Last night when Cade was sleeping I was putting his clothes away and got sad again thinking about it all....

Dear Lord,

If you could please make this year go slower than the last year. Last year went way too fast. Lord, what I know is the sad truth that each year will go by faster than the previous one. But, if you could just help these fast days seem a little longer and the weeks a little slower. Lord, please help me to cherish each day with my 3 children because this will be the last year they will all be home with me. Please help me keep things in perspective and not worry about cleaning or other meaningless things. I want at the end of each day to know that I did something meaningful with all three of them. Amen

The day went great. Cade has a sweet teacher and friends in his class from last year. It must have been great because he has told me so much about what they did. He is happy and that is what matters. He looks forward to tomorrow. So, in that case, my heart smiles.

As for Cannon, he said "I miss Cade" all the way home from preschool. It was neat seeing Cannon play on his own. He played quietly all morning and was busy lining up the animals. When Cannon got to Cade's class, he ran up to give Cade a hug. Cade "politely" gave him a stiff arm in hopes of avoiding a potentially embarrassing situation. As for Landry, she was oblivious to the days events.